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IT is stormy, and raindrops cling like silver bees to the pane, | |
The thin sycamores in the playground are swinging with flattened leaves; | |
The heads of the boys move dimly through a yellow gloom that stains | |
The class; over them all the dark net of my discipline weaves. | |
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It is no good, dear, gentleness and forbearance, I endured too long: | 5 |
I have pushed my hands in the dark soil, under the flower of my soul | |
And the gentle leaves, and have felt where the roots are strong | |
Fixed in the darkness, grappling for the deep soils little control. | |
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And there is the dark, my darling, where the roots are entangled and fight | |
Each one for its hold on the oblivious darkness, I know that there | 10 |
In the night where we first have being, before we rise on the light, | |
We are not brothers, my darling, we fight and we do not spare. | |
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And in the original dark the roots cannot keep, cannot know | |
Any communion whatever, but they bind themselves on to the dark, | |
And drawing the darkness together, crush from it a twilight, a slow | 15 |
Burning that breaks at last into leaves and a flowers bright spark. | |
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I came to the boys with love, my dear, but they turned on me; | |
I came with gentleness, with my heart twixt my hands like a bowl, | |
Like a loving-cup, like a grail, but they spilt it triumphantly | |
And tried to break the vessel, and to violate my soul. | 20 |
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But what have I to do with the boys, deep down in my soul, my love? | |
I throw from out of the darkness my self like a flower into sight, | |
Like a flower from out of the night-time, I lift my face, and those | |
Who will may warm their hands at me, comfort this night. | |
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But whosoever would pluck apart my flowering shall burn their hands, | 25 |
So flowers are tender folk, and roots can only hide, | |
Yet my flowerings of love are a fire, and the scarlet brands | |
Of my love are roses to look at, but flames to chide. | |
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But comfort me, my love, now the fires are low, | |
Now I am broken to earth like a winter destroyed, and all | 30 |
Myself but a knowledge of roots, of roots in the dark that throw | |
A net on the undersoil, which lies passive beneath their thrall. | |
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But comfort me, for henceforth my love is yours alone, | |
To you alone will I offer the bowl, to you will I give | |
My essence only, but love me, and I will atone | 35 |
To you for my general loving, atone as long as I live. | |
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